Knights of the "Old Republic"

Imagine if you live in a country in which corruption occurs everywhere., if you lose your cautions everyday, and if the money supervises everything. Please come and accompany me. Here it is. If you come really close enough, it is not even better than Pakistan, or Iraq. Are we still the defenders of the Republic? Is the Republic still the People's? I can't find the answer myself, nor the anyone else could provide me a clue.
"Political Commander" rules everything even including the promotion of a professor............
May the peace be with Benazir Bhutto, no matter evil or good, at least she shocked the world.

Where is the problem? There is no problem!

Recently, I've been involved in a software development project. I'm standing on the consumer's side, represent our department. The company, which is doing the deployment right now, is one of the biggest Chinese software provider (at least this is how they promote themselves). I don't want to know how the got this project, but rumor said their chief had a long relationship with our THE ONE WHO CHARGES which could be traced back to their college period. Since I am the sys admin of our department, I have to really be careful to this product: which will be maintained solely by myself.
But:
When I saw the system, the first impression was, they totally ignored the requirements. Then, after spending a bit of time digging in to the system, I found many links which led to other universities' website. Aha, that's the "original product" dedicated for us! (I'm not against reusing resources, but at least please clean the mess up...) 10 minutes later, I found a backdoor. I believe it lays there for testing and debugging purpose, but it should never happen in the deployment phase. The biggest surprise came after. The similar backdoors existed everywhere across other systems they developed for our university. (Some backgrounds here: They made several systems for other departments of our university, and a portal to bring all systems together, about a year ago. I never paid much attention to this portal, partially because I think it's too primitive, and partially because the admins of the subsystems never add me to their authorized lists, no matter how many emails I sent to them to ask for authorization . After tons of emails I gave up.) I could have the superuser privilege to do anything I wanna do.
Then I totally got lost. I had no idea what had happened...
During the development phase, or even earlier, we had quite bad experiences with this company. Now, as things evolved, I began to think, did they really care about the users' experience, or they just wanna get the projects done, grab the money and run away... I know my idea is too critical...
Suddenly I...(to be continued...)

I'm sorry and...

I met a gal some time ago by accident. She reminds me another gal, who jumped suddenly in my scene like a charming spark and then faded out. There are number of names which i could even count. I always picked up the wrong time, met the wrong person, did the wrong thing, just because of my pride, selfish, weakness, and prejudice. I left some of them because I thought they hadn't done the same as what I did for them. I left some of them because I couldn't recognize what I really was, or I do not wanna see their painful faces...
Sometime I would really like to ask some one: "Are you happy now?" Since she left for chasing happiness. And I do hope she finally reaches her paradise.

Working but never paid....WTF.....

Keep on working for 12 days, no breaking, many extra work in the evening, even till the middle of the night...
The university pay me like a shit. The new project was not part of my job and my boss told me to give them some support. I will do it, of course, the reason is damned simple: it's worth challenging and I could cooperate with some of my best friends. But look at those assholes, they just act like it gets nothing to do with them. Tell the truth, the only reason which keeps me on this silly project is I don't wanna hand out a crap. I don't give a shit. Those silly fuckers will never know what I've done for them and I beg them never ask...Now it seems like my own project...WTF...
May the best with the guys in the silly research group.

What I've done in the past year.

One year had passed since last time I sat there, watching the movie: Butterfly Effect. What I've done in this year?
Am I still young? The answer is no more.

I miss Paris a bit, and Moscow as well. Not for any people I met there, or any particular scene, but the bleak landscapes, the cold rains, and the Metros.

Mac's still there, but I shift most of my work to a Vista/Fedora powered Thinkpad.

BJ is a great city. Never can stop loving it.

Xanadu Next

Gaming time again...
Xanadu Next is not the most recent game, but it is indeed full of fun.
Spending days and nights walking through the chapters...
There are names flashing in my mind these two years: Wow, Heroes of Might and Magic V, Biohazard 4, Never Winter Night 2... Life is all about game!

Staring night, looking inside the mirror, I could hardly see my own face...

Autumn, though it is spring right now, I still miss every single autumn I'd been through... The pure sky, the sweet wind, and the golden ginkgo leaves...
Time could be stopped if I lay down on the ground, smelling the aged flowers...
But as time goes by, the sorrow grows out of the surface and suffers the lacking of the rain...

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are...

Hope tomorrow would be a green day...

Panzer Dragoon Saga, Haruki Murakami, and so on...

I've been seeding the Panzer Dragoon Saga for almost a week...
Recently, I played many great games, really old games...
Panzer Dragoon Saga (Azel: Panzer Dragoon RPG), the one of the "Games That Defined The Sega Saturn", gave me a long pleasant time several years ago... I spent month on this game but did not finish it all through...
Once upon, when time still went by smoothly, my friends and I had a lot of time together, playing all kinds of games... From the Dragon Quest, the Romance of Three Kingdoms and the Chip and Dale Rescue Rangers on The NES/FC, to the Super Mario 64, which cost me almost 3 months to finish... The golden age of a 16 year old boy...
Until one day things come to Haruki Murakami....

People come and peoble go....nothing could be left

Here are deep sorrows which could hurt people crazily.... and make them mad.... finally....
No one knows.... The little instance, the ultimate guilt....
Never thought this would happen...
For years, the seed deeply buried in the bottom of the heart. But suddenly, it came out of the surface of the ground...

May be that's the fate, or the destiny.
I should pay for my sin.

Many names flashed back in my brain and pained it....
Some of them had gone for a lone time but I still could not wipe them out of my memory....
Some of them are still here around.... But cry when they think of/talk about me....
Should I say sorry or just let it be....

I married, the day when I felt that the right time had come....

Ajax...Well, everyone's talking about it...

Recently, I juz developed several little web apps for the university I'm currently working for. As u may notice, yup, Ajax powered...
The two best things I loved Ajax are: as a front-end coder, I do not have to worry about the server tech they'r using (unless they ask me to follow their tag libs...which is not bad anyway...); as a architecture, I do not have to make any extra decisions more than the original apps, which means design by Ajax without any Ajax in mind.....I even combine Ajax with old ASP tech....
Anyway....Ajax is an old tech as well....

eBooks

one website, full of eBooks. Highly recommended.

Lazy Days

I have no idea why I do not wanna do anything today....
Lazy days....
Finally the *NICE* g-o-v-e-r-m-e-n-t stopped blocking blogspot.com and I can now let my friends review my old posts....
Lazy days....
There should be some way to get me through....
We don't need any reason......

Windows PC

recently i switched to windows pc....well....no money to buy a new macbook so....anyway, thinkpad is good

Cut my finger and watch it bleeding

Recently, I had a bad habit.
I cut my own fingers and watch them bleeding...
The pain is so real that I can even stop thinking the sorrows which i suffer.

I never shut my GSM down.......

My life changed

My life changed. I spent last two weeks in Beijing. I met the girl whom I love. I should have known that early. Life is complicated. But it is still enjoyable.

Teaching Java

I'm teaching Java in Game College now....MIDP gaming programming....
I've been in bad mood for quite a long time since I heard the story that one of my friend submited to suicide 2 months ago....
I may need some time to relax a bit...

I am okay

Cought cold, but i am still quite okay these days.... home is good.......

On my way home

I will go back to my home town in China today.

Once you lost it, you lost it forever.....

One screenshot of Blizzard's canceled game, Warcraft Adventures: Lord of the Clans.
I can still remember the pain when I saw the announcement of the cancellation on the magazine. It would not come back but it will stay in our memories since we have the souls of advanture.

Old friends

Some of my old friends just found me online and we had a great conversation. As a Gemini, I do not really think friendship is a necessary but an enjoyableness, but, it was quite a great time when we were still half kids half adult. We did change a lot, didn't we? We should not change that much, shouldn't we?

Never mind...

I had a dream the day before yesterday. Some friends were there in my dream, again. I can still feel pain when I think of them. I suddenly know that there are some people whom I just can't get rid of. They're one of them. I tried to find the reason and ended up with one simple outcome: they're still there, in my mind, always.
I did not want to lose them but I had no choice. From that moment on I'm obsessing about the dreams in which they came by.
But,
never mind.

Zoomed out! IE vs Safari

IESafari

The Motorcycle Diary

I opened this booklet again today.
It is still hot here. The sun burns outside but Che's diary leads me towards an untouchable wonderland. Far far away, but there lays peace.
I always wonder, if, one day, in my entire life, I could lay down on a piece of grass, do noting but stare into the sky, see how fast the clouds can catch the light. But I clearly understand, my peace, is worth less, compare to the destiny which we have been desired thus far.

She stayed, crying through rain and glass
clouded with grief and tears
She stayed, unable to cry
Wait! I will come
walking with you.

Otero Silva

May the glory be with you.

Free Computer Books

Intelligentedu.com lists a collection of free computer books for programming, networking, neural network, OS, so on and so on. It take days to figure out those documentations which I need.
Postponed one exam, molecular model building, to the next exam session in September: I need time to remember the structures of the 20 amino acids.......
And Apple discontinued its single-processor PowerMac G5 in favor of an all dual-chip lineup.

Open Solaris

Sun Microsystems released Solaris 10 as open-source software on June 14, 2005. Solaris was a widely used version of Unix during the explosion of dot-com. But it began falling due to the popularization of Linux and other open source rivals. Sun targets this release toward the developers and holp it can re-compet with Red Hat, IBM and Microsoft. Sun aslo provides integrated Sun Java Enterprise System components and the Sun Java Desktop System.

Interesting? Ben Rockwood tells more

Longest Day

Annual activity, promotion on the longest day, came back today. Hot hot and hot. The sun's hot and the people're hot. It is one of the longest days in my life. Tired.

Header, template and MSN Spaces

I adapted the background picture of the header while trying to keep the original style of the template.
I played with MSN Spaces for a while last night on a Windows machine and I have to say that MS did it quite well. There are a number of fancy .Net features e.g. drag&drop layouting plus photo albums. It is nicely integrated into MSN messenger 7. I was quite happy. But there are still some drawbacks:
1. Compatibility. Well, it is expectable while bearing the name "MS"N Spaces. I need IE6 to see those features.
2. Customization. I spent quite a while trying to figure out how could I change the out look (I am not satisfied by those templates MS offered, although there are a lot. And I am critical to the appearance), but I can't find a way to set one of my drawing as the background, neither as the header. There seems no way to edit the code either. Good or bad? Depends.
3. One ID one space.
4. Lack of spell checker.
Conclusion: It is a very nice feature that MS offered. My friends are sticking there and blogging everyday. It seems they won't move to any other instance messenger recently. MS won again. I saw many non-blog people started blogging by sharing their photos first. But I won't be able to join them simplely because I am using a sh!t Mac and I don't care much if my friends' goin to read my blog or not. The world is now MS's and I am also expecting a major update of MSN messenger:Mac, which was announced during the WWDC keynote.

Wuhan, yeah, Wuhan!

I just received a bird view of Wuhan, a fancy city on the Yangzi river, from one of my friends who is temperately working there. PSed to make it small.

bogbumper, birds and insects

bogbumper, a nice blog hold by Katie Fuller.
"A lot of digiscoped bird photos, with plenty of macro (insects, plants etc.)".

Mac's back

I've been suffering the hard disk failure of my powerbook for weeks and finally it's been replace by an AASP engineer. I lost almost all my data, reports and thesis codes. Anyway, I am considering if I need an apple care.....
Exams came and I am quite busy. I hope this would be the final year....
Apple decided to switch to Intel, which is really funny. All the enemies are good.....

Yet another writing night

I have to spend tonight in some kind of writing. The thesis book. I can't push it till the end of the thesis itself. I am a programmer, an engineer more than a mathematician. So I do need more efforts to understand those fancy theories of the fancy SVM in order to write the principles clearly. I've been reading the Motorcycle Diary for quite a while but I could not find a whole afternoon to enjoy it. I hope one day in the future I could have some dedicated time for reading and I know it could be a kind of luxury for me. Sorry, 'Che'.
I meant to treat this blog as a Tech one but I just can't stop talking tiny stuffs in my daily life.......
Anyway, recently I met a software called Starry Night. It reminds me SkyMap and those happy days when I owned a little telescope. Have fun.

PS: Faye's birthday just passed by and we never celebrate together. Best wishes.

Rega Institute

We had a visit to Rega Institute where SARS is being studied. Well, we did not have access to that part of the building which should be highly protected of course, but we did see some mass spectrum machines. A nice visit, anyway.
I had some tough experiences these days with some Chinese websites which I loved before. Safari just can't recognize their coding as well as the fancy objects inserted in their pages. In fact, no browser could except IE in Windows plays those little videos. Nothing could I complain since MS is the biggest player there, except I wish they could add 'charset=gb2321' in the meta. I chatted with one of my friends who is a programmer and he told me that 'dot net' is really 'hot' there. I personally never successfully made my conversion to .NET, exactly like I did not successfully make my switch from Warcraft II to Warcraft III (neither WoW). LOL.
Okay, that's it, I'm going go back to my sexy Mac (and looking forward to tiger's coming).

PS: There are a lot of things that you won't care unless you do dream about it. What a weird sentence I am typing.....

Endless SVM.....

Every day before dark I feel my eyes pain. I may spend too much time in front of my Mac, doing nothing but coding.
The thesis, which we've been working on for 4 weeks goes slowly these days. There are quite a bit repeative works: measuring the performance, coding, so on and so on.
Endless.....But enjoyable.

About the logo

I spent half an hour on this logo.
A short explaination:
'ik' == 'I' in Dutch, 'K' comes from 'Ken', and the little man standing there , which forms the 'i', indicates that I am male..........

PS:the logo is hosted on ImageShack™.

The 1st post on the hot Mac

Well, this is my 3rd Blog........
The 1st is in Chinese and I'm still updating it...
The 2nd was aimed for the thesis work we did last year and it was stopped with the finalization of the thesis work.
Here comes the 3rd one........
I'm not a native speaker of English. Sorry for those silly sentences.